It Was Because I Loved Him That I Had to Let Him Go
I went through the labor,
but never held him in my arms
as I gave him for adoption
so others saw his childhood charms.
But it has always been my prayer
that all these years he did know —
it was because I loved him
that I had to let him go.
He has a special mother
to care for him I’m sure,
and the love she has for him
is one that will endure.
Though I never held him
or saw his boyish smile,
I have always loved him
and hope to see him in a while,
in a while in Heaven,
just through the pearly gates,
when we are together
where our loving Savior waits.
— Patricia Lawrence
Written prior to meeting my son
I Am His Birthmom, But She is His Mother
I am his birthmom,
but she is his mother.
I gave him birth,
but she gave him other.
She gave him a home,
a mom and a dad,
She gave him something that I never had.
I didn’t have a husband
to give him a man
to pattern his life
for good and not bad.
She stepped in when I was
so hopelessly alone
and didn’t have things to give,
as she gave him a home.
She gave of her time
and showed him grace,
as she held him close
And looked into his face.
She raised him right,
and at times it was hard,
with trials of her own,
and at times she was tired.
I have great respect for her
and honor her too
for doing the things
that I couldn’t do.
May God bless her
all of her days,
and may He always give to her
the Mother’s Day praise.
-Patricia Lawrence
This poem was written as my Mother’s day thanks to the fine woman who adopted the son I could not keep.
BIO: Patricia Lawrence is a widow, mother of 3 daughters, birthmother to one son,
grandmother to 7, and great-grandmother to 6. She resides in Las Cruces, New Mexico at this time, but will soon be moving to Peoria, Arizona to live with her daughter, as she is losing her eyesight. Pat has been a pro-life blogger for Save The 1, and has written her pregnant by rape story here. She’s also written a book of her life story which can be read here, and her story has been made into a radio drama — Part 1, and Part 2.
